I got in the car with the nerves of not having slept, having to go back, go up those stairs, go into the bathroom, turn the cigar in the ashtray witnessed secrets, whispers and anxieties.
music accompanied me in my mood. Nervous but happy. I have won again. The days of agony are now gone. Now the desired future uncertain but real.
I felt it was a farewell. Only a slight stinging when smoking with her, unknown in these banks. We could even have our last talk on the terrace that you worked together. In which I felt my last knot when he refused to kiss and stood back looking at the pool. Were loose, they are still in their uncertain days.
The back and it was different. In just seven kilometers tried not to think they have been more than two years with them. Many hours, many things, many sensations. I owe more than I imagined, half of the city, although at times it has been through some slap of humility, belongs to them. So this is a true declaration of friendship.
When I entered, the sense of timing was too present to create eternal bonds. I had him, and always, too many changes to re-learn. Would be a few months, my new people was different, the Friday and Saturday, the holiday, the boring classes but shared. That was my future, because of my back and my money, time and energy.
It was not easy. Hostile place where they exist, have to walk with the loaded gun and feel that only survive if you learn to shut up, listen and take aim. That does not help confidence. But I changed. Things were going off normalizing and away, and my hours inside stretched. You looked at first unintentionally, sharing lives, thoughts, hopes, and just learning that some people do not choose, you are not, and it teaches you to assign, to empathize and above all to respect.
When the tense atmosphere began to eat, the bonds of friendship were woven with threads of trust, familiarity, loyalty. Willing to share outside these paper walls. With the certainty that they were the ones that saved me from frustration.
Our tables are empty. But there were diaries full of memorable phrases. There were photos of naps, pregnancy books, mails secret. Looks, gestures accomplices. Eschatological meals, Fermín in the pool. Cries of anger, pain, nerves, but mostly laughter. Calling hours at dusk. Beer, birthdays and left out. Many secrets locked in boxes of loyalty. We know so well ...
My favorite freak has taught me about excels, access, and professionalism. Always discreet and respectful, hugged me with tearful eyes at the end, from up there. Not only for those legs enviable. Up, because his intelligence and versatility are well above the rest. Too bad I do not know.
With fewer hours she shared, but I have a sheet full of photos, and some calls last month and hopes accomplices. Frustration, and the certainty that was not our site has joined us without looking. Always so loving, a look of help here, a hug there ... these days either, we have continued to share the enthusiasm for the new. Certainly going to be lucky, good people have it.
She was my latest discovery. There are times when not chosen. One is wearing or not wearing. Share or not share. I owe a couple of reeds that I have saved the last days. I owe a lot. I'll take the risk, with loyalty, with its shared secret. Day after day has shown me that I have not only their city of origin, lifestyle, professionalism and integrity. I have your friendship. And so, with the smoothness that characterizes him, has become for always an untouchable.
Search words it makes me hard. These days I have been suffering. I cried his tears and felt their weight. One day we were married and even kidding, maybe we have joined and hopeless and there is nothing that separates us. Ours is a path carved over time. A little understanding here, a few beers out there, a similar vision of things, a note on green paper, a love who I want, a design of m & m, unconditional support ... Not everyone has able to see. I have a chance. I see it. And this end is only the beginning for us.
And now, my most difficult, my last goodbyes, I miss deeper. Ella. Without it probably would not have endured so much. Without their help, without you out to the terrace and give you a slap, or I give you my shoulder, or give you my ear. My Pili, or Mill, or already know. Always arguing that the job is not to make friends, from the first day showed me otherwise. Nobody knows, nobody sees. It has so many masks as virtues, and I feel fortunate that costs as little disassembly me as we want. I remember the first day, his absence would not know it would be so costly in the past. Hardness of the first few weeks I was compensated by his sincerity. The knew immediately see the learned understand. And she to me. He has shared his food, home, its past, its belly and its secrets. Has the appropriate call when he knew it was wrong. I was taken from the ear to see the reason for his armor. We just look for understanding. While we do understand! How I'll miss you! We have a Milanese to the Neapolitan pending. And a low full breakfast. I do not want to lose your gut, not the face of Alba. Now ordered pens and clearing my table smiling, I'm more integrated and learned of professionalism, consistency. And I owe it all to her.
on Friday not only recovered the vanity and liberty. I'm going back to write insurance, and to have hope. Regain time, laughing. Lose the frustration and feeling trapped. Of course, a part of me will stay there forever, with you.
